It doesn't happen quite often that I come out of a movie and feel intellectually evoked. Guess that's 'coz I don't happen to see intelligent cinema any more or plays for that matter. This Saturday I had this pleasant types feeling after watching ROCK ON!!! No, the movie is no provoker kinda’ stuff or like that. It just made me think. Think about a fact which normally doesn’t cross my mind v freq... I was just wondering if all of us actually are doing what we wanted to do in our resp lives. Are we doing something which is keeping us happy, ‘coz we always wanted to pursue it or are we just flowing with this torrent called Life? Its open ended!
The other day this wonderful lady called Gini on Meow 104.8 FM was discussing a similar topic in her show. I was surprised to learn that not even a damn single soul said confidently that he/she is doing something that makes him/her happy. It was damn thought-provoking, disturbing and surprising; all at the same time. I am just wondering if a majority of population actually is feeling the same syndrome that I am feeling just now. If that is the case then it absolutely is very unfortunate. As bad as it could get!!!
Ok, for that matter am I doing what I had dreamt of??? Well, I don’t think so. My dreams always had a vocation somewhere else. Probably in the quarters of Administrative Services but then leave it. But what is more important is whether if I am enjoying to the fullest whatever I am doing at present which is Banking.
Banking as such was never my type of sector, neither is it something I would put my heart totally into. Guess I am doing it just ‘coz I want to survive. And this is one reason I am not able to extract the best out of me. I am just doing whatever is sufficiently enough to keep me going. Trust me, the moment I will develop a sense of belongingness to this sector, I would be an impossible chase. But how much time its’ gonna’ take, whether it is gonna happen or not. All these questions are dwindling unanswered. Cool hai yaar.Chill!
In any case, just back from Book Fair. After a very very very long time got so much involved with books, my first love. It was just so comforting, soothing in the company of literature, fiction, science, philosophy and History. I wanted to buy so many of them but with my budget could get hold of only a couple of Hindi lit and likewiz.Guess this is one thing that makes me happy...HeHeHe…Looking forward to build on my own library some day. May be very soon ;-)
Gotta’ retire to bed. Monday blues are already gripping me. What crap…It is gonna’ be a tough Monday. So many questions after a bad month .Hello Up there …SOS !!! :-(
it`s take a loads of courage nd grit 2 pursue only u not your`s,for that single perceive u have to became like SAADHU-SANT.what i mean 2 say is that u have 2 leave all ur surroundings,dependencies etc etc.
ReplyDeleteBecause whatev`r u want 2 be, it may take more time then expected.But as time move on, as we grow in such environment in which we have 2 be answerable for lot of our own questions raised by relations,responsibilities nd bla bla . .. (Because they won`t wait 4
u),then u have 2 reply them.
And there you have 2 leave U and start doin for Ur`s.
Well, i still have 2 go for "ROCK-ON"
Guess you are right Mohit.Just to add to it,I have always believed that we are what we wish to be.Not a bit more not an inch less.So even if we are not a sage,we can be happy and contended.Only one issue and probably contradiction with my own thoughts.Being contended always kills the individual's natural desire to excel.Its a two edged sword I guess:-)Anyways,thanks for posting.:-)
ReplyDeleteWhy have you stopped blogging??
ReplyDeleteHave not stopped blogging,just that I dont write till there is no escape from the feeling of either disgust or satiety.In any case...why are u posting as anonymous..:-)Its better to leave a trail na !!!
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