I seriously don’t know when will I get regular at blogging. This time it’s been over 6 months I scribbled on this page. Wierdo!!!
It reminds me of BR Sharma Sir who probably is the only teacher who has left an indelible impression on my mind. Out of all his sudden spurts of wisdom, the one that has stuck with me was exclusively eloquated to me during a 0530 AM December 1998 winter morning one-on-one. I guess I was not able to focus on my goal or probably he saw me in some kind of’ dilemma I am not sure but it was roughly on the same lines and he was corollarily not in a position to teach due to last night’s high. I guess he just somehow saw it on my face like always and told me to come on in and sit. Then he just said,yeah tell me watz' troubling you and I just roughly told him all I could gather out of nonsensical stuffs going on in my mind regarding my career, life whatever. At the end of it he said – MOHIT,ALWAYS REMEMBER TO KEEP ATLEAST ONE ACTIVITY CONSTANT IN YOUR LIFE AT ANY GIVEN POINT OF TIME….ONE FIXED FOCAL POINT & YOUR ENTIRE LIFE WILL JUST AUTOMATICALLY ADJUST ITSELF IN THE SURROUNDING AXES ... For a minute I was just quiet, letting it sink deeper not 'coz I had understood all that it meant but coz I trusted his advice more than body else's. And since then I had been following that piece till the end of HBTI through the year of Job-quitting and preparation and it worked all the time. I wouldn’t divulge what was it that I made a constant as it would appear silly to most of you but it always worked perfectly for me. Somehow !!!
But then it all just went into disarray at MBA and later at job where the only measured constant was Entropy. Randomness of thoughts, routines, wants, ambitions, decisions and Life!!! There were days when I was so damn perfectionist in all that I did and now 6 years hence I just halfheartedly attempt at seeking perfection and then just let go. of it .Is it 'coz I have moved up & forth in life or is it because I have gained, what they call MATURITY. But I don’t think its maturity actually. The decisions that I am taking now, the advice I render now is not as involved as they were then. And if it is maturity only, then it has unfortunately given me a non-sensical trait of selectively reacting to things. It is self-restraining and hinders growth; of personality, of acumen and I am a living testimony. I might have grown professionally over the years and have gained ‘Education’ also but at the end of the day is that all just surfacial, non-satisfying illusionary experience. Infact I am sure many of the readers who know me personally would be surprised to know it, but two of the personality traits that have stuck with me in past 3 years are introvert and non-aggressive(read passive !) to the extremes. I mean that’s so weird. Those were always my antonyms. Guess that’s what they call maturity. Huh!!!
Anyways, targets for the week !!! One, mulling over the thing that could be my NEW constant now, second; Surviving through the Half marathon on Sunday and third; experiencing Mumbai trip as a change factor in life. Life is nice to those who treat it nicely.Ain't it? J Keep watching this space for more on it !!! Till then ,so long !!!
