Mumbai !!!

Come Friday and I will once again be off to THE CITY – Mumbai. It is the only place in this whole world which gave me all new connotations of every damn thing I knew about life. In many cases it just so very radically changed the interpretations. Be it life, psyche, approach, attitude or even friendship, the facets Mumbai showed to me were surprisingly different from my pre-set notions. And I don’t regret or remorse the same. It was a real wonderful experience altogether. Just that I was never sure of the chords I was striking then and I am pretty sure now that I didn’t manage to strike a perfect harmony. I just lived in Mumbai, never became a part of it. I just never allowed it to percolate within and make a dent like a stalactite. I just took it in a stride and traveled past it like a nomad. Wonder if I am the only person to have felt the same way.

Whatsoever, day after I would again be in the City of Multiple Character and again I would be strolling past same old Vada-Pao shops and Local stations and Autowallahs and sundry...It would from outside seem as if everything is still the same since the day I left Mumbai, an year and half back but lots would be different. It would bring back to me certain reminiscences which are no longer a part of my life. It would also make me realize that life is hard on those who refuse to live by it dictatorial terms. But does that really matter. Not to me any more ‘coz to me life has been a good teacher if not anything else and I have always been a novel student.Ain’t I dear…:-)

So, here I come Mumbai. Back to the Pavilion.

Whirlwind !!!

It was a whirlwind kinda' day again. Day that kicked off with me playing my old poems while driving. Playing Poems? Ok, for those who barely know me still, I actually have this habit of recording my poems so that I can listen to them as and when I feel like. A feel good kicker exercise kinda’ stuff u c :-) So, I started the drive by playing my poems first and then "The Madhushala".It was after a pretty long time I was listening to the collection recorded by our bunch during HBTI Days. It still seemed so very wonderfully sweet and loving. Precisely the way it used to be during that period. All the time I was wondering as in how things which are instantaneous and provocative become reminiscences for life time and acts deliberately put in context fail to create a long lasting impression. Its’ just so very perplexing.

Anyways, I guess That is one of the zillions of facets of this Amphi T. called life. Uncertainties, though not always desired bring in the most heartfelt happiness whereas well contemplated decisions just simply fail to deliver. This probably goes with quite a few other things as well. Relationships for that matter. Whatever quantum of improbable devotion you confer upon a person, even a pre-hint of overt expectation would bring it down. And that too with a thump. A loud thump.So is trust.As long as you by default trust somebody,all is fine but the moment you start marking notches over trust levels, it just evaporates. Whizzzzz And Off !!!Not advisable at all but unavoidable at times. Whatever the case be,the life should not suffer. You have 2 options; One, learn to keep on accepting pre-decided presents that life offers to you and stay content or Two, revolt and tell life that I am ready to face the unexpected so don’t cringe, come on !!!

It indeed was a whirlwind kinda’ day.Random thoughts.Life indeed is like a strong current. Surrender to it and it will take you to the most testing waters. Then living is chilling !!!

Introspection !!!

Ok!!! Lets’ be very truthful! At least those who know me absolutely well. Did you ever in your lifetime feel or observe, me being unprofessional/indisciplined/casual. I mean ever during the period we were together and later. Did I ever give any body any chance to come back to me and say, “Hey Mohit better be disciplined and you are the only one who is indisciplined in the whole bunch”.Ok leave re-collecting, can you even imagine me at the receiving end of such volleys. Well, surprise!!! Here I am. Meet new me. All versionised me. Regenerative Avtaar of Manu!!! Me who is all of what is said above and more and the one who even acknowledges the same.

Well, of course I have gone through all this and more for a couple of times during past few days. No, it would be inapt to blame it on the other person ‘coz it was my attitude which led to such instances. I have just been less-cautious if not casual. Have been less focused if not indisciplined and I certainly have been stray if not unprofessional. But what does it actually transpires into. Does this mean that I gotta’ be more careful or it means that I gotta’ be more politically correct. Or mabe I don’t have motivation enough to meet my deliverables. Mabe I need a change or mabe I need a tectonic shift in my psyche, my demeanor, my life.

Well, I actually am going through testing waters as it would be a tough journey ahead to calibrate the mindsets my way. The only hope is that probably the only person to whom I wana’ justify my stand is a soundly reasonable one. It would just need me to put in my efforts at the right place and in front of presumably right people at times. Guess I need to learn a lot to survive. It indeed is a tough mad world out there. In any case, perfect hai boss. Lets’ face it and lets prove it …

My Musical Mystery !!!

Neither I am a person who has a pervasive sense of rhythm nor do I belong to an all knowing genre of music buffs. I just happen to possess a lovely car in which I love to be inside with music system on 'coz it allows me to be cut off from the real world and facilitates free flow of emotive vibes as well as self-criticism. It makes me feel good about things which actually are too minor to pay heed to and it also allows me to rebuke myself for many other things. Things which evolve from the unpredictable facets of life and people. Things which are outcome of my biggest weakness and earnest asset, my self-respect.Ok !!! Not again !!!

Well,I basically will stick to what I intend to.So I was contemplating about the kind of music I like to hear to while driving.Yah,so, for past couple of days I just kept on scribbling onto my notepad as in what all songs basically made me feel good about myself out of all the junk I listen to on the FM.My idea was to basically trace out some common link between the songs(some raga,taan,notes,buzz,etc.) so that I can delve deeper into my own psyche and eventually learn to understand my own self better.Frankly speaking,the results were just unassuming and wayward.I am really not sure as in what it all leads to but just so that one of the readers may help me with the common chord,I am posting my shortlist.I mean just try to render a shot at the common chord in these songs.Just as to rationalize my thought process.

• क्यूँ खोया खोया चाँद की ....
• दिल क्या करे ... - सलाम ऐ इश्क
• ये है मेरी कहानी ... - आतिफ असलम
• पल... - के.के।
• डूबा डूबा रहता हूँ ... - मोहित चौहान
• दीवाना ... सोनू निगम
• वो तो है अलबेला ... कभी हाँ कभी ना
• बादल पे पाँव है ... - चक दे
• ओ सनम ... - लकी अली
• आना मेरे प्यार को ... कभी हाँ कभी ना
• माएरी ... पलाश सेन
• पुरानी जींस ... अली हैदर
• यारों दोस्ती ... के . के .
• तारे ज़मीन पे...
• मेरा जहाँ .... - तारे जमीन पे
  

Well,it is a very absurd post again but admittedly one of the most intriguing.Just a random thought again !!!